Ah it's now or never, if I don't post now I'll just keep dragging and dragging and dragging.

No doubt, so much has happened during this long period of absence..which was mainly due to the constant mugging for block tests =/ wouldn't exactly want to come here everything posting about mugging. But I kind of enjoyed the super intensive mugging in school for the last 2 weeks of hols and even during blocks, staying in school from 8am-6pm++ which was much more productive since I can't really concentrate at home and because there's like, real people in school as compared to no one at home.

It really takes a lot for you to know who your true friends are. Throughout the holidays there's been like so much confusion, and perhaps trying too hard. What's yours will be yours, what isn't should just be let go, only when you let go can you pick up something new. Though I didn't exactly get to catch up with some of the people I really wanted..I guess I'm glad that I'm still in contact..or rather I still get to talk to them every now and then. There's just some friends that, you don't really want to imagine drifting away from. On one hand, there's the fear of losing your old friends. On the other hand, there's yet another fear of taking too much of their time and being a burden, especially since they'll have their new friends too. Balance balance.

But then again, the recent turn of events have left me rather..confused, as usual. Thinking too much -> insecurity -> self-doubt -> misery. Need to find a way to get rid of it. Hi guitar!

darren
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell