No more sorry blog or anything because that's getting really irritating and considering the fact that I haven't posted for months now and I'm really gonna kill my blog if I don't force myself to post, it's even more bleh. Not that I just post for the sake of posting or anything, but my busyness shouldn't be an excuse for the lack of reflection and stuff.

I don't really know what to say about my studies right now =/ I guess it's really quite bad like, especially when I get the feeling that I'm not doing enough, I mean, when you feel that you have done enough, sometimes you're already kind of deceiving yourself because you know that you can do better just that maybe you want to make yourself feel good for once, so isn't it even worse when you actually know that you're not doing enough. But, sigh, excuses or not I have plenty of them. Though I'm getting into the studying mood..kinda. Time is another thing..but time can be made.

Been caught up with so much stuff lately..it's been a cycle of TRYING to sleep by 12 so that I'll have energy when I get up at 2 or 3 to do work. Seriously dying but it's more productive than doing work at night after a super tiring day I guess. But then again I'm wondering whether I'm exaggerating too much =/ whether everything isn't actually as bad as it seems. Whether it's actually manageable.

Mafmafmaf. Hello maf you're coming soon, things aren't looking as good as they should be though. Despite the constant back patting, I guess there's no point being overly worried as long as it doesn't get us complacent, though there could be more points about making improvements. Someone tell me how you fill an almost empty space =(

I regret not bringing my guitar back this weekend. Ahhh fingerstyle is fun yay.

darren
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it