Oh man, look at the time haha. This neverending cycle of sleeping late, waking up early to try to do work but end up being super unproductive precisely because I'm too tired from sleeping too late which results in me sleeping very late again because I'll take a long time to complete my work will never end, that's why it's a neverending cycle, because it is a cycle that never ends. And the cycle is like a bicycle, that's why bicycle has the word cycle in it, because it has two cycles, therefore a cycle is a circle, like a wheel. And the wheels on the bus go round and round. And a circle goes round and round and never ends. Therefore calling a cycle neverending is an oxymoron. Noooo I don't want to be a moron, I'm hungry. The lateness is getting to me.

Xin wang is a great place to sit and talk. It's just like a coffee shop actually..it's supposed to be like a hong kong cafe, the only difference is the price bleh. Haha these random long talks(with food of course) help me to unwind. I'm gonna need a lot of unwinding when school starts again, but I'm gonna have much less time for anything of this sort =/ byebye carefreeness.

Looking back on my high school days, I kind of feel like smoked through a lot of stuff =/ though..not intentionally. I mean, when I do something I'll do it as well as I can, if I know I'm doing crap just so that I can sleep early, I won't be able to sleep and I'll just wake up and redo until I'm satisfied then I'll be able to sleep. But apart from the stuff that I'm really passionate about, like research and guitar and stuff, the other stuff..like subjects I'm not that interested in, got really bad at times, just look at my test results. But, why am I even thinking about this now. Jc is a new start after all. Maybe it's precisely because of that, because I know I won't be able to get through so easily, because I know how crucial these two years, and not just that one year of jc 2, really are. Nevermind nevermind, one step at a time.

My father mentioned something about how Singapore chose the athletes for yog, instead of using best timing they used the best average timings from a few trials, which caused a lot of parents to complain. I guess sports is like that, you have to perform well for that moment, for those few minutes or seconds or whatever, it's kind of a one shot make or break kind of thing. Which is sort of like our exams, one flop during the exams that are worth 65% and everything is gone, there's no average or anything.

Haha not a very good gauge of one's ability but, then again, there aren't many fair ways of gauging stuff like this, and since I'm not brilliant enough to come up with the perfect education system, I shan't complain.

Sigh, I'm starting to think too much again. I hate it when I tell myself that I'll do something, and I'm really resolute at that moment, but the resolve starts crumbling like an apple crumble. Haha and then I start wondering if there're people like me, or if I'm just plain weird. It's kind of like, you know that there's no point worrying about stuff you can't control, but sometimes you wish you can do something about it, despite knowing that it's like cutting the red or blue or green or black bomb wire thing and everything may just explode out of control. Ah, oh well, this shall be another test then.

All my random thoughts are just flowing around haha, super random and disorganised post.

It's at times like these that I really wish that there wasn't school so that I can spend more time with my friends..but if not for school, I wouldn't even have these friends in the first place.

darren
It just takes some time,
little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.