I'm in the I want to post but I'm too lazy/too tired mood to again..it's so frustrating when you have something to post about at one point of time and then the next time you want to post you forget about it completely.

Orientation orientation..has been pretty fun haha. But somehow I feel our ogs are a little too big..maybe it's just because I don't really like huge huge groups. But I think something like 20 is okay. Our group is completely dead without alex..that's all I know, but everyone gets really high the moment he's around haha. 4 days with og..kinda short, half of it is over already.

My life is pretty much really calm now, but when the bomb drops, it's a really big one. I'm kinda guilty of this myself..but I wished that everyone would be less heck care, especially after what we promised to do, no doubt we'll lose interest a little, but still, it's a responsibility that we took up and we can't just throw it aside anytime we feel like it. And then..on the other side, everything doesn't seem to be working out so well, something that seemed like so much fun and problem free at the start suddenly..collapses totally, there's so little time left, I really hate letting people down..projects projects projects.

Thinking about what cao yun said, about it being hard to suddenly make a new group of friends after becoming close to one group of friends. I know for sure that I won't be as close to my og as I am to the cambodians, especially after all that we've gone through during that week plus one day, but it's always sad when you imagine everyone getting high now and think about the very practical prospect of becoming hi-bye friends in the not so far away future. Haha but the cambodians are a really fun bunch of totally random people from almost everywhere, but with school starting there's not going to be anymore sitting at the top of vivo till 9.30 to chat =(

I shall not think about it anymore, ha, my interest is in research anyway..and this door being closed doesn't close my door to research, in fact it may even be a good thing. Whether I'm just comforting myself or not..haha, is something I don't have a clue about.



darren
No stop signs, speed limit,
Nobody's gonna slow me down.