A person good at making good food..and tools.
Perhaps the most fulfilling/relieving part of the week was end of o levels, even though it's only one paper. Though the whole thing was quite amusing, like how we thought that the invigilator was a malay when she was chinese, and how she looked like a certain someone from boarding school. But still, I felt more relieved/happy/FREEEEEEE after o levels ended as compared to exams. Even after exams it's like, o levels was the limiting factor to my happiness, even if the concentration of the number of exams over increases, happiness will not increase until os are over.
Went to ngee ann city after os for some survey thingo which was quite fun plus we get paid haha.
Went to choo's house today with peng, yan yu, theron and yao nian. Did all sorts of random stuff and it was really fun, only thing was that I went for lesson after that without dinner, good thing today wasn't so tiring.
For some reason, I feel like I've been fulfilling the materialistic part of my life a lot. Materialistic, not as in just buying stuff..but maybe just all the superficial stuff, results..awards, stuff like that. And I've been doing it all too well, to the extent that it makes it so much more obvious that I'm lacking so much in other aspects, just like the rich and poor divide. Pardon the weird analogy, but right now it's like, you're a power station powering a certain city for many years, and all of a sudden, you realise that there are many other bigger and better power stations out there, you're just like a tiny speck. Kinda feel like a floater, if you know what I mean. And it's kind of ironic how floating stuff like a hot air balloon tend to be empty and follow wherever the wind or whatever external force brings them.
Sometimes you wonder whether you're expecting too much, or you aren't getting enough. It's the little things that count, but sometimes little things fall into the gap between the lift and the door and are lost forever.
darren
Hands are shaking cold,
These hands are meant to hold.
