The very good calculator that gives you very useful answers.

Even though it's like 3mins to 1am, I figured that I shouldn't let my blog rot and should at least do a short post.

To start with, very belated news but project sunshine won the grand finals. And according to wan jing I should sound happier so..HAHAHA YAY =D but honestly, I wasn't really concerned about this, in the sense that gf wasn't a very big aim for me, and this was confirmed yesterday in the dining hall. We were having dinner when mr ang came to tell alex that a lot of teachers thought that they should have won, but he didn't know that yang cheng and I were from project sunshine I guess. Anyway alex tried hinting to him by saying something like "Mr ang, 你不可以说这种话"(haha I'm using this chance to play with the new handwriting thing for mac) but mr ang said that he has the right to voice his opinions. Upon hearing that, not only did I not feel even a tinge of anger, but I was still quite amused(because mr ang is quite a funny guy). And honestly if they wanted to switch the positions I wouldn't get mad or anything, not trying to be some snob or anything here but..you get the point. It kind of reaffirmed my position about your motivations when you undertake a service learning project, and it's precisely why I detest people who do these projects to beef up their portfolios.

On a different note, I have been (more) muggerish these few days..which is a good thing I guess, considering that exams are nearing, next week in fact o.o haha but productivity is another thing..well at least I aim to complete one paper everyday. Thinking about how I actually spent the whole of yesterday studying gives me a little sense of achievement, thought it creeps me out a little too, it was seriously no life. From 10.30am, alex and I were sitting in the common area doing papers and discussing random topics and csc, leaving the room only to go for meals. I think it was creepy because I only bathed at night..okay it's creepy for me because I usually bathe 3 times a day, but it reminded me of the sec 3 hp guy who didn't bathe for a whole week supposedly because he wanted to study, which is a stupid reason, how long could bathing take you. But I like bathing =D okay nevermind.

I managed to entertain myself while doing one of the chem papers. I stared at the following question for at least 10mins, wondering how to answer it and why it has only 3 options, and I felt so dumb because I thought that it was a simple question and I couldn't even understand something like that.



And then..I continued reading..



Mugging for china studies has been rather..enjoyable in a way. I like the topic, but my low chinese standard impairs my ability to express whatever I know accurately, which kind of renders whatever knowledge I have useless during the test..but still, the subject is really interesting. Looking at the 15 page long notes about lee kuan yew and china's 改革开放, it was rather daunting at first, but because I was quite interested in it, reading it became much easier. Actually I like china studies..it's just the tests that kind of kills my motivation.

Teachers always tell you that in order to do well i a subject, you have to have passion in it. But if every teacher tells you that, don't you have to have passion in every single subject? I think that's rather hard for me, there are times when I have an interest in the most mundane of subjects, but it's hard to sustain it, maybe that's why we have to specialise eventually? But if that's the case, isn't it a little demanding to expect everyone to be interested in everything, maybe it's possible but it's hard. Compromising quality for quantity? Unless you're one of those people who can have both quantity and quality which is definitely not someone like me.

Okay it's late so I shall stop here and practice for OD gah..I really need the a1 for my research grade as a bonus. I may not sound like it but I feel much more motivated to study haha..but I also want to sleep.

darren
People keep talking, they can say what they like,
But all I know is everything's gonna be alright.