I haven't gotten a chance to do a proper post for the past 2 posts, I had to rush through both since I was posting right before I slept. Since I have a little more time now(even though I should be studying for tomorrows bio spa) I shall attempt a more thorough post.

Grand finals selection presentation is finally over, in a way I kinda.."learnt" more while preparing for this presentation and while presenting in a way. Well, the judges comments were pretty good but whether we get through to the grand finals or not doesn't really matter to me, it isn't my motivation for doing the project anyway. Like mr tan said, sl shouldn't even be in competitions, it kind of screws your motivations up.

Mr tan sat us down yesterday halfway through our preparations and made us think about our journey with this project in a way. I joined the project without much of a goal, it was just like, I was asked to join so I joined, I had no idea what I was doing, it was like, help people then help lor. But all of a sudden I'm hit with the realisation that it's not as simple as us helping 33 families, rather there are 33 families dependent on us for getting food each month. You see how..important your role is in a way, not in the ego sense but, in the sense that you're actually doing something to help. Part of it involves realising that, as students, our ability to help them is definitely limited, but then again we shouldn't deny the fact that we have done this much to help these people, when we could have spent the tuesday nights sitting at home doing homework, studying for some test or facebooking. I'm more or less driven by my emotions in this project..which can be a good or bad thing. You feel that sense of satisfaction when you help people, but it's not in the 为自己 kind of way but really feeling good that you can do something to help. Haha, don't know lar, I just like being able to help them directly and actually seeing them be able to benefit from the stuff that we do. Grand finals or not, there's still a job to be done, and we're gonna do it.

I've spent much time thinking about certain stuff..not because I'm very free or anything, in fact I'm anything more than free but I just like thinking..or maybe thinking too much.

Friendship, is really like a ship, a ship that you encounter sailing down the river of life. A vessel that makes your journey smooth sailing. A vessel that..when done without, would mean that you'd have to swim against those currents on your own. The facilities on the ship, be it arcades, swimming pools or restaurants, are things that you are able to enjoy and have fun with, and with technological advances, you can do pretty much everything on a cruise ship. Likewise, friends bring loads of enjoyment to your lives, and, likewise, you can do almost anything with friends.

Through the darkest and roughest of storms, the ship will always be your shelter from tough weather. Even if you were to fall aboard, crude as it may sound, there'll always be lifebuoys to pull you back up so that you may continue on your journey. Friends are people you can confide in, to give you advice, to pick you up when you're down. But just like how your friends are part of your "friend ship", you are as much a part of theirs as well.

That was part of my speech I used for toastmasters just now which was pretty much made worse my my terrible speaking skills. But some things are easier said than done..there's so much that I'm missing right now..in both senses of the word. Sometimes I wish I could just..live in the moment.

And I found ng peng's comment today quite amusing, "in real life so weird/crazy but all his posts so emo" lol o.o very emo meh. Haha, oh well.

P760s!

darren
To get you through the day,
And make everything okay