Haven't really been updating recently =X pretty hectic week again, at least until the performanceS are over.

Results for this term were pretty suprising, in good and bad ways. Pretty much screwed my sciences except for chem this term. 5 marks lost to carelessness for physics, and 5 marks in a 35 marks test is a lot. Bio..let's just say that I have never done so badly for bio before. It's not the case of being disappointed because I didn't do AS WELL AS my previous tests, but I've always set high standards for my bio since it's my favourite subject. On the other hand, I did better for my languages suprisingly..math was okay and ihc was a little disappointing, no idea about lit, nick mercer just loves to keep us in anticipation. "I've marked your tests, and..it wasn't that well done -smile smile- but I haven't finished marking all of them yet" that was more than one week after the test.

S4 and E1s class performances were quite good haha, hopefully ours doesn't turn out too bad despite the lack of preparation time. If all goes well, there'll be csm on wednesday and my class performance the following day.

Debates today were terribly screwed because we were unprepared. We merely scribbled stuff onto a piece of foolscap, and leonard's typing during the start of the lesson attracted ms sunita's attention so we had to go first. And guess what, he was typing our script out o.o or at least trying to. Imagine going up with two sentences written for you, and never having seen them until you are about to say them out, I read the second sentence, it went something like "International organisations are not effective," and ended with that comma. I had no idea how to continue for that split second especially since I was just reading it and didn't have time to actually digest what leonard wanted me to say. Good thing I had my rebuttals though, but I have this strong feeling that we'll be screwed the next lesson.

I feel so disappointed once again, so much stuff piling up, no idea how far it's gonna go. Some things simply can't be changed even though they should be, some people don't deserve certain things though they get it(who am I to say who deserves what anyway), some people don't know how fortunate they are and how unappreciative they have been, some people need a wake up call, some people simply don't know what respect is.

Let it go, or keep it in.

darren
Don't know what's right and what's real anymore