Ah, no pre-u scholarship..nevermind..it was kind of expected anyway, considering how I had prepared for the interview..or rather the lack of preparation for that matter. It was more of to save money rather than for the whole prestige and everything but..oh well. But still it makes me wonder where my jc life is heading. It really feels like I'm heading downhill. Back in high school I had all sorts of opportunities that I grabbed and made good use of. Now it feels like my jc life is so empty, or even worse, it's probably lacking a lot of stuff, the most basic thing like results. ARE doesn't make it any better. Getting that award made me realise how competitive everything is, and I know that I'm being paranoid, but, I'm picturing myself not making full use of my jc education and having a bleak future and ahhh. I didn't do anything special for are..it was really just, do what you like to do and just make the best out of it and the path will just be laid out naturally. It took almost 2 years for me to adjust in high school..I don't have that kind of time now. But whatever it is, whatever I do, I'll promise not to lie to myself or betray my own conscience.
On a lighter note, today was a pretty meaningful day. Ccrc visit in the morning was really fun, interacting with all the cleft lip patients and their siblings. It's heartening to see so many siblings going there just to accompany the patients, even though they might be "forced" since parents usually just bring all the kids along, the very fact that they know and can tell us that they're there for a purpose, that is to accompany their siblings, and not just because "my mummy/daddy forced me to come along" is just really sweet. Especially this older brother whose sister is a patient. His sister couldn't fold the paper stars in time and had to leave for her appointment, so he folded a few for her while she was away. And when they were running around with the basket of stars, the girl slipped and the stars fell under the seats, he even crawled under the seats to retrieve them for her. I'm quite glad that I joined op smile.
Failed studying turned catching up session really lightened my load a lot..I realised that I haven't talked like that to anyone for a long time. And of course it wouldn't be complete without the traditional triple snow ice at xin wang! Thanks bong! I shall try to remember to sit up straight.
Now I'm missing 4s4 peeps..and p760s too.
darren
But that's just how the story unfolds,
You get another hand soon after you fold
