Ah, I've let this thing stagnate for far too long. There's been too much happening during this period of time..on one hand there was so much on my mind, but on the other hand the circumstances made it such that it would seem really inappropriate to blog at those times. I don't really have much mood to blog now..but I just can't stand letting it rot for so long.

35th tahanners, crescendo. Really happy for them =) having been a part of them for that short period of time, I know that it wasn't for them to make it through this far. Hearing about them doing 40 for statics was really a shocker. Nevertheless there are times when I really what would happen if I'd chosen to stay. Really miss the feeling of being up there on the mountain..with all the stars..and of course, the team.

Many a times you're told to let go, that things just happen the way they do and we just have to accept it. But is it really wrong to linger for awhile? In fact I think it'd be scary if anyone was able to let go of something previous so easily and so quickly.

So many unexpected things have happened, whether good or bad, I don't know, I can only perceive them to be good or bad, but whether they're really what I perceive them to be in the long run is a totally different thing. On the other hand I should just stop thinking so much and just let things flow naturally.

I'm feeling myself screw up both mentally and physically. My mind tends to be flooded with thoughts, but I just can't pinpoint the individual thoughts that are troubling me, so in the end they just pile up, more, and more. Maybe that'll explain my headaches. The fingers on my right hand don't seem to be functioning properly..can't really write properly, probably overstrained from just now, proves how unfit I've become after so long..but nevertheless being back with 2/3 of the rest of my tt felt good.

Just like how I've been telling myself for the past few holidays, I'll give my electric guitar more attention while I still can since I'm actually at home, ah and bass is still uncertain. I still have to overcome the inertia before I actually get any work done..mundane mundane mundane.

darren
If I don't make that then I'll switch my flight
And I'll be right back at it by the end of the night