600th post! Took me long enough to finally come back here. Each week I would tell myself that the next week would get better, but the moment the next week starts, the cycle just repeats. But then again there wasn't anything particularly interesting happening besides me struggling struggling struggling and trying to get more rest so..yea.

It's not everyday that you break down, especially not in school. But it was a good thing no one could really tell, second good thing was that I happened to be in the toilet anyway. I guess I wasn't as strong as I thought I was, I thought I could handle everything, until the chem test. Knowing that I screwed the test up badly wasn't the bad part, it was the fact that I simply couldn't think straight during the test that killed me. I realised how many clouds there were shrouding everything, and I just couldn't find what I wanted to find. And, that was it, I just couldn't handle it anymore.

It's at time like this that being in a mixed class and being in an all guys class is totally different. Thanks a lot cao yun, I swore I would have died or something if not for what you did.

Ah but, life goes on. I guess I'm feeling a lot better now, no more unnecessary worry that leads to more unnecessary worry elsewhere..negative externalities.

Invest is coming soon, something I never thought I would be a part of. 2 more days to wear that hwa chong school badge. Either way, I guess I've more or less reached a consensus.

Kiss my SnR man

darren
And the things bottled inside have finally begun
To create so much pressure that I'll soon blow up