Struggle..that one word sums up how my week has been.

I've pretty much been going back to boarding school quite late the whole week because of stuff in school, such that I don't even have enough time to read my lecture notes or complete my tutorials. I'm not even doing them in advance, I'm trying to get them done ON TIME, unlike so many of my classmates who've pretty much completed everything in advance =/ though I should be glad that my class is already considered much better than the other smtp classes, at least my class is a lot of fun.

My mac isn't helping much either, stupid mac, why are you getting so slow and screwing up the external hard disk such that I can't back you up anymore D= and even if I want to send you for servicing I can't since you won't let me back up! But then again I don't think I can do without the laptop in boarding school..at least when there's school going on..so it looks like I'll have to wait till the holidays again, and hope that I don't procrastinate..again.

And then there's my weekly schedule..let's have a look. Mondays are gone to cca, tuesdays are gone to smtp enrichment..which means I have to reschedule guitar..which I have yet to do, wednesdays are gone to cca, thursdays will probably be gone to bio o and lesson at night, friday looks like my only free day..which means that I'll probably shift guitar here so..fridays are gone. I don't intend to drop anything..I was even thinking of taking 1 or 2 things up, doesn't seem very possible now, I doubt I can cope.

I'm glad the whole council dilemma is over. Ever since I stepped back into hc..or maybe even before that, I've been deciding whether or not to run for council. Everytime I decide not to run, I'll see something that will attract me to council, then I'll remember all the cons, and after much much much consideration and brain wrecking and messed upness, I will decide not to, and then the cycle repeats. But I guess I finally decided not to go for it, and ironically council was the one who helped me to decide. The video they showed on friday had 3 points, be decisive, be courageous, when the going gets tough the tough get going. From all this, I'm obviously not decisive, and me doubting my ability to get in is proof that I'm not courageous, so byebye council!

It's only week 2 and I'm struggling. How now brown cow?

darren
Ten miles from town and I just broke down,
Spittin' out smoke on the side of the road.