This picture pretty much sums it all up, jing yao's shortlived marriage with bertrand, before bertrand realises his folly in accepting jing yao's marriage proposal and goes back to being single, leaving jing yao as a widow. You won't see this now because jing yao is now in a complicated relationship.

It's ironic that I'm laughing about something like this, and in real life, well, let's just say something similar is happening not very far away. And it kind of set me thinking I guess, most importantly because it reminded me of..someone - soone. Let's see if you understand this.

Whatever comes out now will have no logical flow, it's just..a flow from my mind and it might not make any sense but I guess I just have to get it out otherwise I might not be able to sleep for the 2 hours or so that I have left.

When 2 people are really close, and they want to spend time with one another, doesn't necessarily have to be in a bgr way, it can be in like, good friends way too if you think about it, there's no doubt that sacrifices will have to be made. I mean, if you think of it this way, if a group of not very good friends asks you out, and a group of your very very very very close best best best best friends asks you out, you'll go with the latter right? I mean, you'll prioritise based on who you're closer to MOST OF THE TIME, and in a way that's making a sacrifice. But with that said, of course you can't expect your very very very very close best best best best friends to go out with you when you want to just because you're their very very very very close best best best best friend too.

But..what should you sacrifice in order to have more time with the other person? On one hand, there's the very cliche saying that goes, if you really love someone you'll want them to be happy, and if being happy means doing other things you like while at the same time still spending time with your very very very very close best best best best friends, then you shouldn't give up things that you yourself like to do right? And if both or every party thinks this way, then each party should be given their own space and do what they like to do without being thought of as neglecting the rest.

But of course, if both parties think that they really want to spend every single second of their lives with each other and doing nothing else and are willing to sacrifice everything else for that, then that's their choice. I don't know how it'll turn out, but I guess the feeling has to be mutual. I can say that, if you eat too much chocolate, no matter how nice chocolate is or how much you like chocolate, you'll get sick of it eventually. But relationships are not as simple as..chocolate, though they can be just as sweet.

If you do choose to make sacrifices, you do it out of your own will, you don't do it to show the other person that you made a sacrifice and so they should be proud of you or something. It all boils down to whether you're doing it because you really want to, and you know what you're doing it for, or whether it's just 做给别人看的. In the end..some decisions will definitely upset us, sometimes taking one step back is what you need to do in order to go forward, but I guess what's important is that everyone is happy, with your own life, and with each other as well, 勉强是没有幸福的.

I remember when I was young and my sis and I quarrelled, my parents would say something to make us stop quarrelling, "以后daddy mummy 死了，you only have each other, so try to get along". I guess it's the bluntness of this statement that always got to me. But I guess, I do miss the times when my sis and I used to play with each other. I guess it's a little better now that we do talk to each other occassionally, though it hardly exceeds a few sentences. Haha, so at times when I do have things to say, it's kind of hard I guess. And I know there're many people out there who are close to their siblings, so..I kind of think about that sentence again.

I guess I'm kind of worried, even more so because I'm flying off in less than 6 hours, not about the trip though, but, maybe I'm just thinking too much. I really hope everything turns out well, sometimes well may not seem like the best word to describe it at the start, but..things are not always as they seem, a well is also a structure that collects water.

And thanks bradley for finally returning my umbrella after stealing it from me, I appreciate the 80 cents you put inside it to ward off whatever granny curses you thought I might have put on you, and yes I'm taking the coins out because I don't want coins to rain on me when I open it overseas!

darren
You know I'm hoping you'll sing along,
Though it's not your favourite song.