Nothing much these two days, cleared up my overdue homework except for math because I always forget to bring the textbook back from boarding school. Had to do the du hou gan for ya zhou zhou kan and it's terribly hard to read, considering my chinese isn't that good in the first place.
| What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't. | |
| Losing Someone | |
| Death | |
| Disappointment | |
| Looked down on | |
| Where Your life is Going | |
| Commitment | |
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Got this from jack's blog, decided to do because I felt bored. Something feels missing today, actually since earlier this week, just that it became much..stronger, today. Then again, maybe it's just me, again.
Was talking to yee shing, and I remembered an incident in p4 when I got terribly misunderstood. Got highest in science and math for term 1, and I didn't do as well in term 2 so I got scolded for being complacent. That incident kind of made me not want to do too well in anything, because it meant people having high expectations of me, and me having the pressure to fulfil those expectations. Back then it became like, doing well not for myself, but to live up to expectations and not get misunderstood, which I don't find a very good reason to like, study.
I hate being misunderstood, probably because misunderstandings usually lead to unhappiness, except for those times when misunderstanding lead to good things? Back to the point, not liking being misunderstood, who does anyway, but I think it's probably because I feel terrible whenever I make someone angry/sad or something. Maybe that's why I spam sorrys sometimes =/ not because it's some, meaningless thing that I say as part of like, some ritual everytime I do something wrong, but really because I do feel bad, even when it isn't my fault =X like I can see someone crying and I'll feel bad already, even if I don't know the cause, even if it has nothing to do with me.
Enough about that. Chinese tuition starts tomorrowm probably have to sleep earlier tonight.
Just hoping you're alright..
darren
You won't even know I'm gone
