Torn up?

Anyway, 新年快乐！=）I shall not say the overly used happy niu year thing lol.

Went to grandmother's house for tuan yuan fan yesterday. The family on my father's side is kinda small though. But I think that the tuan yuan fans were more re nao last time when we went to my uncle's house instead because they had a huge dining table which could fit the whole family.

After that we went to j8 just like we did last year. And just like last year, one of the only places still open was haagen dazs. Somehow even ice cream didn't seem very appetising, so I shared some strawberry+lemonade+other nice stuff thing with my mother and it was nice. Haha I've grown to like strawberry a lot, and it kinda brings back..memories?

I guess there's no point in me trying to hold on too much, I guess there's nothing much I can do. I just can't help hating myself for everything that I couldn't do, or did but, only to make things worse. But, just like climbing a rock wall, you'll have to let go to carry on upwards towards your goal. Hopefully things will go back to the way they were, and perhaps, sometime in the future, it'll come true, perhaps, perhaps, perhaps. Till then, I'll still be here =) keep that smile on your face yea?

Going to grandparents house later at 11.30, kinda late. I predict that I'll have to drink that funny soup with beancurd skin, ginko nuts, quail eggs and other stuff in it and I'll end up drinking just the soup and the beancurd skin and leaving the ginko nuts and quail eggs for my mother. Then we'll go to my maternal grandparent's house and wait for my other relatives who are visiting their paternal..grandparents?

I'm finding it hard to look for something to look forward to or anything anymore. No point brooding so much.

Maybe I should start working on those guitar covers I've been thinking about for such a long time. And also that pile of work that still remains though I thought I completed most of my work already.